happy mother's day!

happy mother's day!
mom is just the one who's always, like, always, has her total time for me. as the only daughter, i spent my college time not too far away from home. i live in dorm, but i used to go home almost every weekend. my mom made me chose my first job too. i remembered that time i was accepted in two different companies. the first is the biggest radio group in surabaya as an account executive and as a promotion in one big food and beverage company from japan which will bring me to work over indonesia. then my mom asked me to choose the first one. the reason is simple, she doesn't wanna be too worried about her only daughter working around the country and too far from home.

and i spent more than 3 years working from one place to another, which still, in surabaya and not too far from home (it's only one and a half hour away).

until then, this guy i plan to spend my life with, is moving to jakarta. it's quite far from home. at first, when i said to her i plan to move either (since we're planning to make a serious movement about the relationship), my mom asked me to reconsider. i know she's just worried of being away from me. i am the oldest and the only daughter. i am supposed to live close to them. yeah, at least that's what happens most in my hometown.

but then, she's finally made her decision to let me go. chasing my future with the guy i love, and chasing all my dream about my own career in the magazine. she lets me go. she gave her blessing, her love and all her prayers. even if it means she has to handle all the things at home, alone, with her tight work schedule.

and now, on my wedding preparation, she's taking more than 70% of the prep things. she's busy with work, home stuff, my dad and brothers, our cute little store, but still insisted to work it out her self.

and when i texted her this morning to say happy mother's day, she only said thanks and asked me to pray for her health and long live, until us, the kids, didn't need her anymore. and my tears just dropped like a hard rain.

mom, sorry for always bothering you. sorry for all the-ignoring-time i gave you when i was younger. sorry for not being there, close to you, to help you with things.

happy mother's day, mom!
there will never be a time when i don't need you, as my mom, and my everything!
love ya!